Cinderella

When I was a little girl
I wanted to be Cinderella
To dance in the rain
Without my umbrella

In my glass slippers
I’d walk down the road
Where Prince Charming
On his dark horse, rode

I’d wait for him to descend
In all his shining glory
He would come to save me
Like in a fairy tale story

Then, I started growing up
And saw my own dreams
I’d close my eyes and think
How I wanted life to gleam

There was so much I wanted
And life had so much to give
I didn’t need anyone to save me
I didn’t need a prince to live

I don’t need a Fairy Godmother
Or anyone to cast me a spell
I’d walk to the ball if I have to
And after midnight, bid farewell

I don’t need anyone to set me free
Because I’m not Cinderella
I don’t want to wait for somebody
Sitting in some dark, cold cellar

I don’t want a palace of my own
Nor a Prince Charming to thrive
I’d rather rescue myself, because
I got my own will to survive

Aspirations

Have you ever wanted something so much and for so long that the mere thought of not being able to get it seems impractical and surreal? I have. Its to the point where I cannot even begin to imagine a future without all the things that I have wanted and hoped for, for so many years now. Perhaps it is extremely absurd and idealistic, but it does instill a sense of passion within me. I honestly believe that if you want something with all your heart, if you work for something with all your might, that you will get it in the end. God himself will come down and hand it to you if need be, but only if its meant for you. Now I thunk and I thunk, wondering if all that I want is made for me or not, and I realize that why would it not be meant for me? Why would God let me spend all these years waiting for this one dream to come true, if it wasn't meant for me?

I realize that this whole theory is extremely idealistic and too optimistic, but if you knew me, and you knew exactly how empty a half empty glass looks to me, you'll see that this is, in my screwed up mind, a very logical approach to life. Right or wrong, I don't know, but what I do know is that "just if" are the two most depressing words in the English language, and "I tried" are the two most inspiring. And ten or twenty years down the road, I really want to tell myself that I tried, because I personally think that regret is the worst emotion in this world. Regretting over things you cannot change is one of the cruelest punishments you can give yourself. I do things in life with the mere hope that I won’t end up regretting something a couple of years down the road. Do things in life with all your heart. If it works out for you, great, if it doesn’t, oh well. At least you tried.

Martin Luther King, Jr. once said, "Only when it is dark enough, can you see the stars." The amount of truth in that small statement inspires me to sit underneath the starry sky I see above, and dream some more. I always thought that the more you dream, the more you end up hurting yourself when those dreams don't come true. But today, I realize that, in the end, it does not matter whether that dream comes true or not, all that matters is that the dream was worth chasing.

If that's the case, I don't know about you, but I can spend a whole lifetime chasing after my dreams.