The Dark Skies

Waking up in the morning to dark skies and gray clouds only screams one thing out loud: Go back to sleep. Unfortunately, its only the middle of the week (even with the Labor Day holiday!), and we all have to get up and get going whether or not our body wants to.

I've been so lazy and out of it today, that I've walked in the rain, getting drenched, despite the fact that I have an umbrella sitting in my bag. I think its just something about rain that makes you want to laze around and be as inefficient as possible.

Usually, I'm in a very happy mood when its raining, I want to run out and dance in the rain (bollywood style, of course), without stress over school or work, or life in general. But today's, just not a good day. I don't know what it is, I can't put my hand on it. If I figure it out, I'll let you know - but my laptop is about to run out of battery, and I've forgotten my charger at home (fantastic, ain't it?).

*sigh* (lots of "sighing" going on today. wonder why)

A Musical Inspiration

Lately, I had been feeling like I need a new hobby to pass my days, something that will help me relieve stress and to soothe my overtly active mind. My sister has recently started learning how to play the viola, and I recalled how many, many years ago, back in middle school, I had taken upon violin lessons, but somehow lost motivation along the way, and my passion lasted only a year. My dad is really big on music, and we have a keyboard sitting at home, quite useless and inactive since nobody bothers using it. I decided around midnight one day, that I would try my best to learn how to play it. So I opened up an online tutorial, learned the basic notes - CDEFGAB - labeled them on the keyboard, pulled out piano notations of a song I love, and started playing. Of course, its not I can read music or anything, or that I know what staying in tune or keeping up with the beat means, but what the heck, I have a new hobby now. I truly love music, its inspirational, poetic, and soulful. I crave music so many times during the day, and well, even not knowing how to play, yet still trying to play, makes me kind of happy inside. Of course, that feeling soon turns to guilt, when I realize I've spent all day in front of the keyboard and ignored Organic Chemistry, which haunts me day and night.

Reality Check

The last two weeks have truly been a reality check for me. With classes starting, and things gearing up to the usual monotonous daily routine of life, I feel so out of it. Summer vacation seems like it was just a dream that I was living, and now I had finally come out of a deep sleep and jumped into the train heading to reality.

I have been so busy these days, that I feel like I have not done anything that I've wanted to do. Sometimes, life seems fun that way, being so out of it that you don't have time to sit and think, to put things into perspective or to see the bigger picture. It feels like all you're doing is running after time, trying to keep up with it, as it goes faster and faster, leaving you behind.

But then I thought to myself, what if time ran so ahead of me that it had no choice but to stop and wait for me. Too philosophical, I know. But it makes me feel better knowing that I have control over my life and how I allocate my days. I must say that I really needed this long weekend, its a blessing from God. I hope things will settle down now, including my mind, which has been turning pages of the book without being able to read the chapters all the way through.

God, I'm so out of it, I can't believe I haven't blogged in so long.